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Posted on May 12th, 2008
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Bryan
Bryan
Today I had an incredible experience. I was at my day job standing in the warehouse when very suddenly a wave of energy overcame me. I lost my balance, felt very woozy (just for a moment) and was left with a feeling of euphoria, which was very intense for just a moment, then slowly evaporated like a light mist. It was one of the those timeless moments that was filled with complete awareness and loads of information, but like a dream, and like that mist it seemed to evaporate before I could grasp it.
I realized it was my higher self coming in for an update. Over the last several years I have committed to many layers of my healing and evolving - including a daily meditation practice, yoga, eating very well and practicing mindfulness. This journey is filled with peaks and valleys, and lately I have felt very disconnected from spirit, especially this last winter and spring. Diligence in my practice has allowed my higher self to be in different spaces, sometimes very far from my physical body and this world. "We" have agreed to this. The downside of this is that I can feel very alone and isolated at times. The upside is moments like these, and the gems I receive through tales of these travels.
Like many, I have felt very disorientated, scattered and generally frazzled as of late. I feel like there is so much to be done, so many great opportunites and so many places I want to be. I have clear goals, but have had a hard time focusing too much on the space between where I am and where I want to be that it has left me always thirsty for something; never satisfied.
This moment today reminded me that things can change in an instant. It reminded me to focus on my breath and gratitude when feeling this thirst. It reminded me that there is a lot more happening that I can ever be aware of, and that's okay.
What was really neat about the experience is that I suddenly had energy and inspiration to speak my truth in many ways. I have clear ideas that I want to share with my bosses (without the fear of being rejected). I have something I want to share with a co-worker, and another inspiration to share with an old friend who is struggling (without the lethargy that sometimes accompanies having talks such as these). I am enjoying more and more the ability to use this higher energy in everyday, practical ways.
I am still buzzing as I write this. I am still feeling the effects of this contact. I am so grateful to have my cup filled and know that this will keep me energized for a long time - even through the pain and discomfort that sometimes accompanies my growth.
I share this for those who are feeling stuck and wayward - and for myself. And to remind myself that lows accompany the highs of the human experience, especially for those that focus on their spirtual awakening.
I realized it was my higher self coming in for an update. Over the last several years I have committed to many layers of my healing and evolving - including a daily meditation practice, yoga, eating very well and practicing mindfulness. This journey is filled with peaks and valleys, and lately I have felt very disconnected from spirit, especially this last winter and spring. Diligence in my practice has allowed my higher self to be in different spaces, sometimes very far from my physical body and this world. "We" have agreed to this. The downside of this is that I can feel very alone and isolated at times. The upside is moments like these, and the gems I receive through tales of these travels.
Like many, I have felt very disorientated, scattered and generally frazzled as of late. I feel like there is so much to be done, so many great opportunites and so many places I want to be. I have clear goals, but have had a hard time focusing too much on the space between where I am and where I want to be that it has left me always thirsty for something; never satisfied.
This moment today reminded me that things can change in an instant. It reminded me to focus on my breath and gratitude when feeling this thirst. It reminded me that there is a lot more happening that I can ever be aware of, and that's okay.
What was really neat about the experience is that I suddenly had energy and inspiration to speak my truth in many ways. I have clear ideas that I want to share with my bosses (without the fear of being rejected). I have something I want to share with a co-worker, and another inspiration to share with an old friend who is struggling (without the lethargy that sometimes accompanies having talks such as these). I am enjoying more and more the ability to use this higher energy in everyday, practical ways.
I am still buzzing as I write this. I am still feeling the effects of this contact. I am so grateful to have my cup filled and know that this will keep me energized for a long time - even through the pain and discomfort that sometimes accompanies my growth.
I share this for those who are feeling stuck and wayward - and for myself. And to remind myself that lows accompany the highs of the human experience, especially for those that focus on their spirtual awakening.
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Last night I followed up this experience with a very interesting dream. My family is renting a walk-out rambler with a detached garage about 30 yards behind the house…
In my dream our landlord had moved the garage right up against our home and had opened a secret “trap door” in the concrete of the garage floor. Underneath was various treasures that I wanted to get - but I didn't feel they belonged to me. In addition, tiny garter snakes began to slither out of this underground storage. I actually stepped on one and killed it. It was more of a reaction but I justified it by thinking these baby snakes would eventually grow into bigger snakes and be a nuisance. Later in the dream the snakes were very large, the size of a python. I was a bit scared of these, though they were still garter snakes and I knew they were harmless. The rest of my dream involved wanting to get into that storage (but not pursuing because it wasn't “mine,” and being around several of these snakes, which were making their way closer to our house.
I did a quick Google search on snakes and what they represent in dreams. A lot was said about sexuality, but what I found most interesting (and relevant) was an interpretation that snakes can be symbolic of a message coming to you from a higher plane. I may be being challenged in some part of my life and ready to “break free” in some way - much like how a snake sheds its skin during molting. Listen to my inner self for Wisdom messages the snake may offer. It also suggested I look at the entire context of my dream and determine how I felt about the snakes.
So in looking at my context, the snakes came from the underground (my subconscious) where I had determined there were treasures that I wanted but did not feel they belonged to me. The message from a higher plane resonates with the experience I had of connecting with my higher self the day before which was symbolized by the landlord moving the garage. (Which is sort of how I felt when the energy moved me yesterday - my whole foundation shifted!)
It is interesting, though, that I felt overwhelmed by the snakes and that I had to try and control them. Not necessarily out of fear but more feeing they would be getting in the way or a danger to my daily life.
These are definitely some fun metaphors to swim with as I continue to process this great experience. And I am open to any other interpretations and comments!